what?....

screamo_attic @ 2008-02-07T16:32:00

2008-02-07T21:35:03Z

ummm

2008-02-07T21:30:41Z

whats new with todd.

2007-10-16T23:10:26Z

Um.
nothing much is up in my life.
homecoming is next week, hah ill make sure to post pics,
um
and one year with missy is like in 23 days what the fuck.
im growing something on my face, i dont know what it is yet.
ill inform you on that also.

been gettin into alice in chains a little bit,

screamo_attic @ 2007-09-15T12:08:00

2007-09-15T16:17:13Z

well, havent posted for a long ass time,

how is everybody?

heres whats new..

passed my permit test...

getting much better grades than the last 3 times ive failed 10th grade,im in 11th,

um..

on 10/7/07 it will be 11 months for me and missy,

ok,

bye bye

screamo_attic @ 2007-06-04T10:39:00

2007-06-04T14:42:23Z

so how is everyone?

uhm..

missys in colorado for 1 and a half weeks

it sucks,

but shes coming home on wednsday =]

umm..

summers beeen alright,

got this job from my dad making boxes for 50 bucks a barrel each, just the other day i got 130 bucks,

uhm.

got a bike...

uhhh..

im 18,got my id,got some ciggerettes.

um.

nothing much is new with me

btw

new journal
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and if you wanna chat on aim = a hippy bonfire

or my myspace is

www.myspace.com/yourmothersfaceisawhore

or my youtube channel that i have 113 videos of mine on

http://www.youtube.com/nirvanasuckslol

fire_umbrellas

screamo_attic @ 2007-04-04T10:13:00

2007-04-04T14:17:28Z

i made that ^^^^^^^^^

k bye

screamo_attic @ 2007-03-07T16:38:00

2007-03-07T21:41:53Z

Shes my other half,i seriously could not live to see what id be without her,it seems that when your in love time goes faster,its already been 4 months and seems like its only been 2 and a half,shes amazing,and if you ever insult her i will personally kick your fucking ass.She probably has an idea of how much she means to me,but probably not, Every day i think of her atleast 5 times,i stare at her whenever i get the chance because she is goregous,She Changes my attitude towards things, and makes my life great,I can honestly say that i love her more than i love my dad, and thats one of your parents.your suppost to love your parents alot. i love her more No matter what she does it will not change how i feel about her, if you think that im just being all preppy and trendy and putting, "oo i love blah blah blah forever!" your wrong,i am typing all of this for my own entertainment and amusement,she is my world and i love her, a couple of weeks ago it was 30 degrees outside,and i wanted to see her , she lives in lake padgett area, and i live like 2 miles or a mile away, that didnt stop me, i went half way to her house and i didnt even ask to get picked up but i was, i would walk in negitive 19 degrees for 25 miles just to be with her,

i love you missy callum

screamo_attic @ 2007-01-11T19:14:00

2007-01-12T00:15:57Z

screamo_attic @ 2007-01-08T15:03:00

2007-01-08T20:04:40Z

2 of my most pasionate beliefs (long) read it and reply

2006-12-31T18:54:28Z

"Evolve" - todd ford

well one night while talking on the phone with my girlfriend, i was writing in my journal and the last word i wrote down was the word LOVE, well after about 20 minutes in just staring at it and thinking to myself
i put a letter V and a letter E in front of it and saw that it spells EVOLVE backwards, and that came to shock towards me (ask my girlfriend missy)
i was like "wow"
and i thought to myself for the remainding of that night about the similarities towards both of the words.

in a way, love evolves after time, it gets bigger and better,
and it changes, and through these 6 decades the word LOVE has changed meanings into how one another says it,
now teenagers are using it too frequently and too young, ages 10 and 13 are using it and probably dont even know what it is to actually "love something"

i just think that we need to Take that word seriously.thats all

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Well i posted this about a month ago but i still feel the same about it.

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"EMO" - todd ford

Ever since "the event" i have been acting different

i try and laugh but all i have is sympathy now ,

i only have 3 reasons why im still alive.

[To see what the music world will end up to be in 10 years from now.]

[3 Friends that i love with all my heart and would do ANYTHING for, (Josh, Drea , Chris l. )

[This one girl that im begining to really like that i feel really comfertable with opening myself up to her ]

And if you think thats "emo", FUCK you whoever generates emotion into a fucking stereotype,

Everyones Emotional, if you will "emo" is a fucking gay stereotype and i hate it alot

Every one gets mad,depressed,sad,happy,confused, ANY EMOTION , so dont tell me your not EMOtional. ill just fucking call you a liar right infront of your face.

It's that same bullshit that goes with music, all music has to gennerate from somewhere, and on any emotion , being happy, being in love, hating yourself, but some people over exajurate all those feelings and all that crap

Im sorry people ,

Yea,

Fuck all of you stereotypical bastards

screamo_attic @ 2006-12-26T11:13:00

2006-12-26T15:13:38Z

Well..I havent posted stuff in here for a while..

2006-12-22T14:47:57Z

So heres whats happening in my life..

I've been having a pretty good life since abouut... november 6th?

ummm

I have not been Depressed much since then.

umm...

I have a girlfriend.

Almost been 2 months,

im gowing a beard/goatee

ok, idfk

bye,

haha

screamo_attic @ 2006-12-07T17:11:00

2006-12-07T21:11:05Z

Ever since "the event" i have been acting different

i try and laugh but all i have is sympathy now ,

i only have 3 reasons why im still alive.

[To see what the music world will end up to be in 10 years from now.]

[3 Friends that i love with all my heart and would do ANYTHING for, (Josh, Drea , Chris l. )

[This one girl that im begining to really like that i feel really comfertable with opening myself up to her ]

And if you think thats "emo", FUCK you whoever generates emotion into a fucking stereotype,

Everyones Emotional, if you will "emo" is a fucking gay stereotype and i hate it alot

Every one gets mad,depressed,sad,happy,confused, ANY EMOTION , so dont tell me your not EMOtional. ill just fucking call you a liar right infront of your face.

It's that same bullshit that goes with music, all music has to gennerate from somewhere, and on any emotion , being happy, being in love, hating yourself, but some people over exajurate all those feelings and all that crap

Im sorry people ,

Yea,

Fuck all of you stereotypical bastards

screamo_attic @ 2006-11-27T21:02:00

2006-11-28T01:02:49Z

screamo_attic @ 2006-11-20T18:47:00

2006-11-20T22:47:50Z

Does Anyone live by or in one of those callier pkwy places?

if so i could probably walk to your house,

omg i was fucking hyper outside when walking there, omg omg

it was reaqaaaaaally funnn .

someone rolled down the window and screamed "grunge bitch!"

i smiled,

btw i got a john lennon shirt from my mom from new york,

:]

omg

im just sitting here, NOT EATING , waiting for someone to get on,

im all hyypeerrr

i <3 this weather

:]]]]

First actuall song ive written in a while..

2006-11-18T18:52:05Z

"mrs.Rehabillitation"

Baby,
Your gonna make some man really happy,
Hopefully not me because,
you know i dont want to be manly,
Insted, id rather be childish , now,
come on , step on the dock with me now,
lets take a little time to plan this problem out

I'm stopping pot
I'm Stopping Drinking
Keeping Ciggerettes,
keep on eating,
i know your upset right now,
please dont,
fucking have a cow,

Now someday when we are on the dock
ill look to you and then youll point to the sea
the we both look at the sky
i turn to you,
see your beautiful eyes,
then the sun go's away
go away
goes away
gone away
went away
go away
goes away
gone away
went away
go away
goes away
gone away
went away
go away
goes away
gone away
went away

I'm stopping pot
I'm Stopping Drinking
Keeping Ciggerettes,
keep on eating,
i know your upset right now,
please dont,
fucking have a cow,

screamo_attic @ 2006-11-12T13:03:00

2006-11-12T17:03:40Z

YOUR MOM

i Was grounded , heres what happened...

2006-11-05T16:26:01Z

i think it was thursday or whatever..i got grounded for stupid reasons.. but anyways..heres what i did

on thursday i just thought of 3 people alot.
i slept for 5 hours when i got home and missed my brother coming over

on friday..

i wasnt as misrible...
i actually talked to missy...

and then anthony and alex came over to devons house and i couldnt do anything else so i went over there,,

talked a little...

i mainly was talking to the talking chair...
a.
ummm... went home..

YESTERDAY

me and my mom went to the mall ....

couldnt find anything...

went to super walmart . bout these awesome hoodies

and gloves and i cut off the fingers and when i put a hoodie on with the gloves and stuff i already had on..

i looked like a certain someone.....

but yea...

i also got a really good bush cd "sixteen stone"

i dont buy cds for the songs i know on it but heres the "popular songs" on it

"everythings zen"
"comedown"
"machinehead"
"glycerine"

bye

screamo_attic @ 2006-10-26T16:25:00

2006-10-26T20:34:20Z

Yea.

I dont even know Why I'm Here.

O,

thats right.

Friends.

Whatever.

i dont really have any anymore now that im in those drop out prevention class.

I cant go to the cafeteria at all.

i cant hang out with any of my friends.

life seriously blows right now.

Im losing some of my very close friends cause of it.

i never talk to any of them so they all think i suck or whatever.

they just dont understand how much shit this class is.

i wish i had a cell phone .

but insted i have to remember phone numbers. .. What phone numbers?
i dont see any cause i dont have any cause this stupid class.

i cant wait till im 18 so i can die already.

i mean really.

no one would probably notice anyways.

i try and be such a good person and in the end
life screws me over
i wouldnt die for my parents.
i would only die for my friends.
and my brother.

i dont think anyone knows how much fucking stress im in.

now one of my best Ladie - friend wont even talk to me.

I hate depression.

im way to parinoid also.

i really dont talk to anyone anymore.its really sad.

or if you will , Anti-social

dying of starvation is better than not having friends.

which im probably gonna do both when im out on my own nowhere to live and no money to pay for food. next year , ill eventually die

why the fuck am i typing this shit?

no one cares anyways

so fuck you world.

Life

2006-10-25T20:08:34Z

Has been so confusing lately.

School sucks, as usuall.
Everyone hates me. As usual.
No one wants to hang out with me. as usuall
Girls...., they hate me , as usuall

I cannot freaking wait till this summer,

ill be 18 ,

my months as an 18 year old - death are going to be the best years of my life, my teenager years sucked, well, i mean , my teenager years , 18 + 19 dont count.

Im going to get my Id ,

ill be soo happy.

ive been waiting for me to be 18 for certain things.....

ooooo and the most important thing of all,

i dont have anyone tellin me what to do anymore

and stephanie might come over in the summer which will be awesome and i cant wait.

hopefully joshes van would be working then .

haha

i havent talked to him or jake or drea or kittie or crystal in a long ass time , and it makes me really sad that i dont have there numbers..

yea..

and ive been thinking about dying my hair dark brown..

someone please make me happy.

i need some joy in my life right now

LMAOOOOOOO

2006-10-20T03:13:19Z

screamo_attic @ 2006-10-20T02:24:00

2006-10-20T02:26:20Z

never dyed hair in my life

its going to be dark brown

screamo_attic @ 2006-10-16T17:12:00

2006-10-16T17:13:18Z

screamo_attic @ 2006-10-14T12:16:00

2006-10-14T16:16:52Z

Last night......
I went with my Grandfather to see leonardo decapreo and jacknickolens new movie "the departed" (rated r)

it was one of the best movies ive seen in a long time

haha , you stand up like a 12 year olds cock , - mark wahlburg , the departed

screamo_attic @ 2006-10-10T19:49:00

2006-10-10T23:51:09Z

name: Todd Ford
sex: male
which gender do you like to fantasize about?: none
where do you live?: hell
.
opinions/views.

>>George Bush-i dont have an opinion for him
>>Same Sex Marriages- I think that it’s up to the people it involves. its their love life.
>>Premarital Sex-
>>Religion- whatever
>>Abortion- fuck it
>>Teen Drinking- good

.have you ever.
done drugs- yes
drank alcohol- yes
gotten beat up- yes
beat someone up- yes
done the dirty- ........
intentionally failed a test- yes

::word association!::
organism-flower
g-unit- bullet
school- gay
dog- hair
pelvic thrust- panties
hump- dog
relish- pickles
nightmare- i dont know
fire- hot hot heat
job- for fags
computer- wasting time
happy-none
death- happiness

Time Started: 7:59
What are your initials? Tmf

Birthday? 5/17/89

Do you believe in god? somewhat

Are you a scientologist? hell no

What color are your eyes? Greenish grey

You a male or a female? sometimes i wish i were none

What genre of music do you listen to? punk , grundge , classic rock

Is your family religious? somewhat

Do you drink? yea

(This question is only to be answered if you said "yes" to number 16) Right on man, but why do you drink? take the pain away
What is your sexual preference? straight

Have you ever....

Gone to church because YOU wanted to? once i think...

Received oral sex? No comment

Had sex with something other than a human? Does a Teacher count?

Drugs

Marijuana? yay

Acid? nope

Cocaine? yay

Shrooms?ehh

Ecstasy? nope

GHB? nope

Any type of pill that the doctor didnt prescribe (Not over the counter either)? None of your business

Heroin? only took it once

Crack? nope

Crystal Meth? no

Otha stuff...

What song(s) best describes you? "Homeless" -cisum
What is your favorite ice cream topping? dead you

If you could spend 24 hours with any person who would it be? Stephanie Jones OR Leah fucking nash , shes so beautiful

Favorite part of your body? hair

Superman or Batman? batman

Lara Croft or Duke- duke kicks ass

Favorite M&M color? GREEN

If you could have sex with any celebrity, with whom would it be? Leah nash

Favorite possession? Bass Guitar

The strangest place you have had or want to have sex? The bus

First crush? Kayla Gilbert

Favorite Jackson--Michael,
Is Elvis really dead? no

Best James Bond--Sean Connery,

Best Fast Food Fries? Uhhhhh…dunno

Biggest fear: Ants

MORE QUESTIONS FOR EVERYBODY

Favorite bird: Crow

What sucks most--Teletubbies, Furbies or Pokemon? none

Favorite fish: Bass

Worst movie: None

Favorite album cover: Dookie

Robert Frost or Edgar Allan Poe: allan poe is alive

Coke or Pepsi? coke bitch

35. Favorite Kool Aid? lime

36. Favorite iced tea? any..mm

37. Hero: anybody who gives a shit about music

38. Who would play you in a movie? jared leto

39. What would a movie about your life be called? The many challenges of being a teenager

If you started a band, what would its name be? your a dumbass...

Who are there the most pictures of on your bedroom wall? kurt cobain

If you were going to change your name to a symbol, what would it look like? A dot

Best South Park character: tweak

Gwen Stefani or Shirley Manson? manson is fucking hot

Do you believe in love? yes

would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life? sandwiches

do you want to drop school? yes

What do you think of sleep? fuck sleep

are you happy? not right now

who do you wish you could kiss? leah nash